Posted in Uncategorized

The shape changing idea!

Joseph Cambell discovered the is a template that can be used to deconstruct every myth of every culture in the world. Heroes, villans gods, demons, these are tools used by people to construct explanations for things they don’t understand.

Shape-shifting is a common ability for mythic gods. They could change themselves to fit in any situation. Ideas can do the same thing. They can help us through any situation as long as we think clearly and with purpose.

Posted in Uncategorized

The Story Question

Myths are parables. Myths exist to explain the unexplained, an answer the unanswerable. Central to myths are lessons. The Monolithic hero, usually has something about him which separates him from all those around him. He must go on an epic journey in order to understand why he is different He comes back with knowledge to improve his life and that those around him. Usually the story question involves learning how to accept his uniqueness and through his acceptance, solve the problem.

The story question is the foundation of the whole story. It is answered at story’s end.

Posted in Uncategorized

Inspiration’s Cave

When Plato wrote The Republic in
514a–520a, it was to illustrate the affect of education on human beings. Plato thought that without the light education brings, people are ignorant and will only see the world as shadows on a cave wall.

Being inspired to write a story is a lot like being in a cave. At first there is absolute darkness. But if I look hard enough, there’s little points of light which will slowly light my way to a satisfying ending. I think Plato would approve of my allegory.

Posted in Uncategorized

Mourning For A Shadow

I sometimes find myself wondering what my life would be like if I wasn’t born with Cerebral Palsy I wonder how I’d be different if I could walk, run, Drive a car, or just simply use the bloody toilet by myself.I think about how I would be different. I call this “Mourning For A Shadow” If I focus too much on what I do not have, or what cannot be done I will fall down a depressive rabbi hole from which I cannot easily extricate myself. My disability has taught me a lot about a Mindfulness and disciplining my own thoughts.

Here are some tricks that help me if I find myself focusing on the negative.

1. I stop what I’m doing.

2. Get away from the current environment.

3. Focus on one good thing that happened that day until I’m calm. Then my attitude will change over time.

What do you do if you mourn for shadows?

Posted in Uncategorized

Milton’s Lessons

If one studies literature, one can learn many lessons that can be applied to daily life. They’re many lessons to be found in Milton’s 1667 poem, Paradise Lost. At its heart, this poem is about dealing with consequences and learning how to accept life. Milton says that “The mind is its own place and in itself can make a Heaven of Hell and a Hell of Heaven.” I think that this quote illustrates the fact that often in life, circumstances are beyond our control and all we can do is change how we think about them. A positive attitude is important. No matter how bad you think life is, things can always be worse. With the wrong attitude, things will be made worse. Attitude is important.

Posted in Uncategorized

Walking My Path

“If you give birth to that which is within you, what you have will save you.”

– The Gospel of Thomas

I have always wanted to feel normal. I have always wanted to be able to walk, talk eat and live as a normal able bodied person.

I have always made decisions and choices based on what I thought I needed to do so that I would appear to be a “normal” person rather than what I wanted to do. It was very important to me. It was so important to me that it lead to me being of mistakes on my part. I became very fearful of making them. I would make catastrophes of even small mistakes. It greatly undermined my confidence. Even so, I kept at web design, a long time, even though i could never seem to make any progress. The web seemed to evolve at a faster pace than I could stand. After quitting a job for which I wasn’t a good fit and struggling with a severe depressive episode, I decided to change direction completely and start talking my book seriously.

Not long after I started my new direction, I read this quote from the Gnostic Gospel of Thomas. It resonated with me and seemed to reinforce what I was doing. So much so, that I began to read so more of it. In my opinion, it seemed to talk about transcending the world and societal expectations and following your own instincts which is what was, and still am attempting to do, in writing this book. I felt a sense of peace while reading quote. So, I continued writing and editing the book

The ongoing process of writing this book has indeed had its frustrating moments, but, for the most part I have been calm and happy. More happy than I ever was in web design. I am no longer depressed and I have better control over my thoughts and emotions. Perhaps that means that that one is “normal” when one is happy being oneself. I think Thomas would agree.

Posted in Uncategorized

What have I learned?

I’m about to celebrate my thirty-eighth birthday. Thirty-eight years on this planet and living my life has taught me one thing. Adversity is part of life, for everyone. But the hardest obstacles to get past are the ones we put in front of ourselves. Its okay to ask for help but we must never lose site of our own strengths and responsibilities. At then end of the day each of us is responsible for our own happiness. We cannot depend on other people to make us happy, that is our task alone.

Posted in Uncategorized


Wheelchair, Superimposed with Ying/Yang

I made this picture with Photoshop. A Ying/Yang represents duality, dark exists side by side with light for me this is how I feel about disability. A lot of darkness a lot of limitations But a lot of mental strength too That’s why I put a wheelchair in in the picture to represent very conflicted feelings. Its part of my life but not all of it. I also write and swim and do volunteer work. I’m also a gamer. I believe I live a full life despite my circumstance. That’s reason for pride. Ambivalence is the word I use to describe my feelings.