{"id":518,"date":"2019-01-26T00:08:13","date_gmt":"2019-01-26T00:08:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/parkin.silverfir.net\/wordpress\/?p=518"},"modified":"2019-01-26T00:08:13","modified_gmt":"2019-01-26T00:08:13","slug":"mourning-for-a-shadow","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/parkin.silverfir.net\/wordpress\/?p=518","title":{"rendered":"Mourning For A Shadow"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I sometimes find myself wondering what my life would be like if I wasn&#8217;t born with <a href=\"http:\/\/ucpsdfoundation.org\/whatiscp.html\"> Cerebral Palsy <\/a> I wonder  how I&#8217;d be different if I could walk, run, Drive a car, or just simply use the bloody toilet by myself.I think about how I would be different. I call this &#8220;Mourning For A Shadow&#8221; If I focus too much on what I do not have, or what cannot be done I will fall down a depressive rabbi hole  from which I cannot easily extricate myself.  My disability has taught me a lot about a <a href=\"https:\/\/www.mindful.org\/meditation\/mindfulness-getting-started\/?gclid=EAIaIQobChMI2oTzhYqK4AIVwRx9Ch2gxABWEAAYAyAAEgI6SvD_BwE\"> Mindfulness <\/a> and disciplining my own thoughts.  <\/p>\n<p>Here are some tricks that help me if I find myself focusing on the negative.<\/p>\n<p>1. I stop what I&#8217;m doing.<\/p>\n<p>2. Get away from the current  environment.<\/p>\n<p>3. Focus on one good thing that happened that day until I&#8217;m calm. Then my attitude will change over time.<\/p>\n<p>What do you do if you mourn for shadows?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I sometimes find myself wondering what my life would be like if I wasn&#8217;t born with Cerebral Palsy I wonder how I&#8217;d be different if I could walk, run, Drive a car, or just simply use the bloody toilet by myself.I think about how I would be different. I call this &#8220;Mourning For A Shadow&#8221; If I focus too much on what I do not have, or what cannot be done I will fall down a depressive rabbi hole from which I cannot easily extricate myself. My disability has taught me a lot about a Mindfulness and disciplining my own&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-518","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/parkin.silverfir.net\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/518","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/parkin.silverfir.net\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/parkin.silverfir.net\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/parkin.silverfir.net\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/parkin.silverfir.net\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=518"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/parkin.silverfir.net\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/518\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":519,"href":"http:\/\/parkin.silverfir.net\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/518\/revisions\/519"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/parkin.silverfir.net\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=518"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/parkin.silverfir.net\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=518"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/parkin.silverfir.net\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=518"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}